Friday, December 16, 2016

How I Grew As A Person This Year

This year was a year of change for me- as surprising and unexpecting as it was. I did things I never dreamed I would accomplish. I overcame obstacles that I thought were too hard or high to climb. There was even a moment when I thought I couldn't go on anymore, but I persevered.

The year started off wonderfully. I had just gotten into a new relationship and was very happy (I still am!), and for some reason, a lot of my anxiety dissolved with that. Don't get me wrong, I still have some of it... I always will... But I wasn't obsessing over every little thing I couldn't change. I was sleeping again. I was able to face society again, and every time I faced a problem, I wasn't greeted with a panic attack. I don't know what changed, but I am very glad it did. Otherwise I would still a sleep-deprived zombie that frequently would avoid anything out of my comfort zone. I think "S" had something to do with it, although I'm unsure how. A mystery is afoot!

Fast forward to spring. I started having major pain and redness in my right eye. Every time a light source would hit it, I'd be in excruciating pain and unable to open the eye. My vision was very fuzzy, which meant my left eye would have to compensate. After going to the hospital, that's when I was partially diagnosed with uveitis. So, I went to see a retina specialist, which also meant socializing. Yes, the social anxiety was somewhat strong then. Through those doctor visits, not only did I learn to relax (hard to do when they are very close to your face on a weekly basis), I also learned I have a very strong support system. Family. And friends. So after months of strong steroid eye drops, I am uveitis free.

This year I also focused on my health. I lost weight, I started running/walking with my sister, and everything else fell into place. I have energy. While there are times my kryptonites (Dr Pepper and chocolate) sing a very loud song, I make up for what I do eat by walking/running. Some days you don't feel like getting out and being active, and that's okay. The next day, though, you must get out and do something... whether it's walk to the grocery store a mile or so down the street, or just taking a stroll through your neighborhood. It's winter, I know so it's hard to do when there's ice and snow on the ground. Luckily here in Texas, we haven't had any snow or ice, so I am free to run or walk as often as I like. Thanks, Mother Nature.

So I guess what I'm saying is that this year was life-changing for me. I'm happy, healthy, able to live life, and nothing could be better than that.... Except maybe being able to fall asleep without a care in the world, but somehow I doubt that will happen. Until then, I'm satisfied with what I have now. I've learned to trust, to love, to grow, to accept. It turned out to be a year of some good and some bad changes, but it only makes you stronger. Makes you ready to take life by the handle and push it into throttle.

.... And that the end of today's "Life Lessons".....

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